Amanda Mandy Miura, 16, shuttler of Nan Hua Badminton Team, true blue 6th member of Arashi ★

Back from badminton training @ Clementi Sports Hall. Am stinky like dno what shit now. ):

Yesterday.

We got our Geography CT papers back. Towards the end of the Geography lesson, teared till my eyes went red (bla, they always anw) as I rested my head on my table, afraid to let anyone discover my then emotions. When it was time to greet Ms Wong (Ms. Ha. -.-) at the end of the lesson, I had no choice but to stand up with red and somewhat swollen (maybe..?) eyes. Got some unwanted (didn't mean it in a mean way, haha) attention from nearby classmates, of course.

I mean, you would feel the same as me if you were in MY shoes, won't you? Failing Geography - my most dreaded subject ever since the time I had a bad experience from a class test some time ago - and by just a pathetic f*cking mark - was totally not what I wanted to get. If I have to fail, at least give me a straight grade. Not a pissing D7. And I find it totally NOT worth getting that stupid grade by mugging and burning midnight oil countless times. It's rly unfair.

Either I rly didn't revise that well after all those revisions, or maybe I DO have a psychological barrier between Geog and I (once again, referring to that exp I got from a test. Shan't elaborate), or perhaps I'm just plain stupid.

If I am, it means Geography really doesn't like me, then.

Today.

For today, we received our HCL, Bio & History CT papers back. I got satisfying grades - for none of the 3 subjects. Bio, I forgot how much I got (don't blame me, blame my random STML), but my impression was that I scored one or two marks lower than Audrey..? History, got 17 out of 30. Got an extra mark from Ms Sathi after letting her examine my paper again, thanks to Audrey for her persuasion. (cuz I was pretty pessimistic of the chance of earning extra marks) HCL was the worst. I failed. By half a mark.

Geography's already bad enough for me, and now this? Wow.

Tears welled up in my eyes numerous times in class. I rly, rly detest my History & HCL marks, esp HCL. Couldn't bear it any longer and went straight to the toilet when the lunch bell rang and hid myself in the cubicle to ease myself. And cry.

Sometimes I really think I'm such a coward.

And, I can only conclude that I have totally no luck for this second Common Tests. And it's my problem too, I admit. For those subjects that I passed, I merely brushed through the failing line. And as for those that I failed, I fell just very slightly below the passing grade. I could have passed by just getting a half mark or one mark. How cool is that.

I rly don't think I'd want to know how well I fared for the rest of the papers. Knowing five is enough alrdy. back to top?